I don’t know whether or not to deactivate this thing…
I still love her. Don’t get me wrong…this girl will always mean something to me and I will always love her…she was my first and truest love, but things just weren’t the same anymore. We ended it tonight at 10:07 pm. Through tears and sobs, things were said that were from the heart…and the only thing I wasn’t allowed to say (because she didn’t want to hear because I was the one ending things) was I love you. Jenn, that’s the only thing you need to understand. I know my feelings have changed…but the one thing that hasn’t, is that I do love you. I have for two and a half plus years, that’s not going anywhere especially when you my first real love. At 20 years old, you would think I’ve had my share of girlfriends. I’ve had three, and this last one will be hard to even think of replacing. I’m not looking for someone new. I don’t want someone new. I’ll wait til I’m 50 to find her if have to. Jenn is someone special. Always has been, always will be. I still love you even if you don’t want to hear it. And I’m sorry. I’m sorry for hurting you like a ton of bricks, but I couldn’t lie to you anymore. I couldn’t wait for everything to come back when it hasn’t in the passed week and a half. I’m sorry from the bottom of my own broken heart to yours.
I love you. I always have. I always will.
I’m sorry..
And 5…I’m always going to love you.
And I’m always going to be here if you need me. Always.
Thinking about you. Hopefully dream about you. I love you, pretty girl.
I love you.
